(To learn more about my motivations for this series, click here!)
On the Journey, the first two cards encountered are the Magician and the High Priestess – the great balancing forces that make up the perceived world. The Magician is bathed in sunlight and looking forwards, the Priestess sits beneath a crescent moon and is gazing at the past.
This was an important step for me on my doula journey. Having spent my life in flux and hurt, I needed to get to a more balanced place in my life and within myself, in order to be able to focus on my training and eventually be able to give to others. The culmination of this healing was Gaia’s birth, truly a transformative moment!
Like the Magician with action and the Priestess with inaction, I have had to learn to accept what had happened in my past, particularly my first birth experience, and to use that to move forward positively. Finding the metaphorical ‘silver lining’.
When exploring the stronger and weaker balancing aspects of myself, I have discovered that I have a great capacity for love and sharing that with others. Alongside that though, is a need to feel like I am connected to others by bringing personal empathy. Whilst this is fantastic in general life, as a doula, I have to work hard on bringing that love and energy to the space, but not bringing with it the baggage and projecting my own personal experiences onto the mother. Connecting with them and being what THEY need at that moment. Giving without expectation of anything in return, simply for the joy of giving is something I am continually working on to benefit myself in my role as a doula. Indeed, it’s something that I strive to do in my everyday life. I’m an inherently selfish human being so I have to work hard to give and be generous with myself, my energy, my time, my money… My husband really inspires me to give always, without judgment, exactly something I need to bring to being a doula! (He’d make a brilliant doula actually!)